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Tuesday, November 28, 2006

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ahhhh

so far away :S

i miss dear :S

boo hoo hoo.

9:24 PM;

Monday, November 27, 2006

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today is a happy day

:)

but the uncertainties are still there.

today was eating at katong laksa, this china waiter (young man) brought weikheam's lime juice and tell us "yi kuai er ba le " so we heard $1.28 for the drink. I went huh? and the guy repeated his sentence slowly "yi kuai er, ba le" (only $1.20), then i went oh. and he smiled oddly at me :S

i was eatin my laksa (head down) when he came back to return the change for the drink. and he made an irritating noise to attract my attention.. then he grinned at me -.- oh gosh in front of waikit and wei kheam somemore. how disgusting.

gosh i wana b happy but nt such scary incidence ya?

sigh find life so unfair for me.

9:50 PM;

Saturday, November 11, 2006

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sorry for bein so negative for so many posts.. i guess this one will remain the same..

haha.. maths paper was horrible! paper1 is like.. not e usual A level standards :S n paper 2.. i tink its difficult to pull e 1st paper's marks..but well its over..i'll move on..

many ppl r goin to finish their papers tis comin week.. but bio students haf 1 more week to go.. :S goshh.. somehow im nt lookin forward to e 6 mths long break..becos im afraid i'll waste my time.. :S

recently there are still ups n downs.. of cos my uncertainties are still there.. becos i nv get any answers.. sometimes it seems lik i've got my answer..

"i don't think this is the last la"

but e next moment.. a cold shoulder n mean words..

Are competitions always about winning? its quite demoralising for me when someone keep saying that im not as strong as...sighh is it so important to win..why am i always second and never your first choice..

i feel lik a puppet..my feelings were never considered..

i wish tt i can become myself again..i have lost my confidence..my self esteem..my positive outlook..i wan to b stronger mentally..actuali i tink i am stronger mentally..jus tt thins tt happened nw..its too much fr anyone w a sane mind to tolerate..but i wan to tolerate..

yuan jiayou jiayou!

9:54 AM;

Thursday, November 02, 2006

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yo yo finish GP paper le..

hmm.. i tink my life is too too dramatic.. i duno when i wil get upset or when i wil b happy.. its so unpredictable.. but right now i know tt.. im not happy.

i guess i know im wasting my life away for being unhappy but i guess it is part of my life tt i MUST go thru so tt i wil turn out stronger mentally.. honestly i feel damn weak now.

seriously i feel v pent up.. n no matter how many frens console me.. i will feel e same as e uncertainty is always there.. its not gone yet.

its so easy for me to cry nowadays.. jus tink abt a simple scenario which may nv happen n there.. i cry.n obviously all this scenarios are negative negative negative.. i wan to b positive but i cant.. sigh e problem is wad is there tt i can imagine tt i can b happy abt?

ahhhh sorry to all readers.

im pursuing wad i tink i will be happy. tho im v v silly nw, i gues tis is part of my life. hahaha at least i have a story to tel. i wan to b happy. happy happy happy.

lift tt damn rock off my chest, its killing me. argh!!!!! :S

2:57 PM;