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Sunday, March 19, 2006

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tml start sch again ahhhhhhhhh wth!

oh well today so called gave yinwei a surprise birthday celebration though e cake.. ermm.. rather small. hahaha but i find it yummy. secret recipe!!!! ate tt at camerons which cost so much cheaper! half price! aiyah shd haf eaten more dere. nvm! i'll return dere to eat de YES!

poor dear.. he's sick. fever. i tink smhow i caught his virus too.. let's hope not.

ahhhh beta start on some sch work.. hehehe.

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Saturday, March 18, 2006

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feel happy today :)

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Friday, March 17, 2006

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today was supposed to be a wonderful day until it ended kinda sad over a silly topic of studies n inferior complex. yiks.

hmm.. smtimes i wonder abt those thins i once said.. ppl said those thins will not come true.but i jux c dem comin.and yup they came.and they are unhappy matters.

hope life gets better ya.

:)

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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

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woah im back.

whirlwind of events manx.

back from malaysia. e 2 mounts.. mount binchang n yong belar werent as beautiful as i tot they wld be... but cameron highlands is beautiful :) love e cool breeze.. e neat terraces on e slopes.. e warmth of e ppl living there.

had a trashing out session w oacians n i realised tt they were such great frenx. they were v totful abt hw i felt n so on. was touched. however, it is v difficult to solve certain issues becos they are based on human nature. will only try hard to bear w things.

today we had another trashing out session. felt reali bad abt it. i used to b some1 w great leadership skills n was outspoken n outgoin. nw i chose not to be known n quiet. i m some1 who tries v hard to contribute to e team but well.. durin dis trip i din prove myself useful at all. i duno if it is becos i did too much sai kang b4 tt im not willin to continue. or becos of other matters.

however aft knowin this league of extraordinary ppl, i decided to contribute more. n prob find myself back. someone who leads by example. someone who is respected by e crowd.

i hope i find myself back. i miss e gung ho yuan. hahaha.

my dear sent me home today. happy.

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Saturday, March 04, 2006

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i cant believe thins gona turn out this way.

i nv expected it. i felt betrayed for some reasons. becos i trusted them. i tot they'll understand. but im afraid not.

i reali nv expect them to say those things.

they should not judge the attitude i haf as unreasonable or nonsense or stupidity. becos they don't know what i have been through. their judgement will be bull shit w/o my affirmation.

i guess if they don't bother to ask the truth from me i wont bother to explain to them. Becos it is not worth it since they already judge me base on one side of the story.

i treasure these frenx. at least i know i had my happy moments w them.

if they continue to have such perspective of me. i rather i nv haf such frenx.

i felt sad abt this. really sad.

no longer looking forward to _ _ _.

bad memories.

8:57 PM;

Thursday, March 02, 2006

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finally i gona update.

recently my life sux. i duno wth is wrong w me. or is dere reali somethin wrong w me or r thins nv my fault. i duno. i duno wad i shd do.

haf been doin weird things to vent my frustrations nowadays which worries me. but at least im conscious of wad im doin. they help, i feel. but i dun tink its a good way.

sigh im losing myself. becomin a sad loner. where did e spontaneous liyuan go?

i love my dear for he love me so much.

i wish to be happier. if my mood swings doesnt change. im dead meat. i'll go bonkers.

7:51 PM;