Friday, September 23, 2005
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lolx.
wah pw got lots to do sia.
lolx.
some fren of mine hope tt aft promos.. i'll be back to e bubbly yuann. haha hope so bahh.
today got oac. tot it was goin to be somethin sian. but it was rather fun. ran 2.4km. deproved of cos. 13:22. oh well we climbed BLK 14 3 times. 24 storeys. so.. we climbed 72 storeys. yea! of cos we rest in btn. n we dun use e lift to come down. heh.
oh well i find it rather fun lehx. somehow with mr lim ard. heh. cos he kinda motivated me by chasin me down e stairs. lolx. he pretty funny sia. hahahax.
engwei cld get onto e tennis wall leh! wah. aiya gew ar.. since u can get onto e TOP den u beta do e same for ur promos eh. lolx. today waikit managed to jump n get up to e tennis wall. woah.
some of u mux b tinkin.. huh? wad tennis wall? aiya e one in TJ lo.. Quite high up.. 3m perhaps? my rough gauge only.
(kaisheng, szesian, yinwei, liesel, weikheam, waikit, engwei, myself, alex, yanling, amanda, kimberley)
Picture taken quite long ago. we helped one another to get up :) kaisheng WAS e only one hu can go up then. lolx.
back to pw. yuck.
9:49 PM;
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
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i tink i got split personality.
i duno wad e hell am i doing.
for example.. aft e waste-time-econs-quiz (no offence cos i cld use e time to study instead!), part of me asked me to rush bak hm n jux walked away FAST. part of me told me to wait. wait for?
but my legs carried me. so yupp i left FAST.
sighh. ahhhhhhhhhh felt lik a loner nowadays. helpless n everything. no one to turn to. no one will understand me. no one to hear me out. da*n ... sickenin lehx.
n i dun wana bother any1. dey cant help anywayx.
waited for hy today at trc. went toilet. came bak to find my seat occupied. i mean its ok to haf xtra company but can e person kindly c tt there's a bag dere n jux dun pop ur butt down dere? or at least sit at hy's side lah.
i dun even know y am i not v happy abt dis.
argh. mayb it is jux me. i'm feelin sucky n everythin.
tok to mathias today. kinda.. wonderful. cos it has been terribly long since i las spoken to him.
got many updates frm him. cool. hehex. e thin i reali lik abt him is.. he made me happy today despite bein so moody practically e wk.
tel u guys wad. i dun haf motivation to study. n worse stil. if i study. nothin gets in. i'm reali scared la. zzzzz. ok i nd to go :(
5:37 PM;
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
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drama drama drama.
sometimes i wish my life is jux like that. plain normal n simple.
guess i'm fated to live a life filled with complications that i can't solve.
lost a friend because of e mistake of telling him e truth.
but hey, did i really lose him as a friend.
only time will tell i guess.
today its silly. i sat outside "the compass" of TJC and tok over e fone.
sighh. weird. having tears and odd feelings.
words that i wana say but fear i'll regret later.
i really hope i can tok to wtf again.
there's so much i wana tell him. and prob ask him who's e lucky gal that he is tinkin of now.
gues it is reali up to me whether to call him or not. but it'll jux get more and more awakward.
sighhx.
i wana dream.
all this are too unreal.
freaky.
speakin of freaky. jux nw on my way home, some 20 plus young man tok to me n asked me for directions 2 e bus stop w a bus tt reaches paya lebar mrt station.
"ermm.. tt bus stop. go str n u'll reach."
"ermm ok.. thanx!" *puts out his hand to shake mine*
*smiles awakwardly* "no thanx." *walks faster*
"ermm u r frm tjc ar.. wad yr r u in?"
"yr 1" *walks faster* he followed -.-
"u lok lik a yr 2 u noe.. reali!"
-.- "haha thanx.."
"oh u wore braces. u lok pretty w braces"
"haha thanx." -.-
"so how long do u nd to put on.. when r u goin to get dem off?"
"1 yr later.. erm go str n tt's e bus stop"
"ermm yea u sure tt bus stop?"
"yea" (walked faster n crossed e road)
"erm.."
bleahx. freaky sia.
hahaha e main pt is! I TOLD HIM THE WRONG BUS STOP! haha. gues tt mistake saved me cos he din cross e road w me (which he actually SUPPOSE to) *HENG*
reminds me of someone in cchs. but tt guy is more scary den dis one. hahax.
7:54 PM;
Friday, September 16, 2005
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went for econs remedial. realised i did not do any econs mcq qns in e tys b4. sighx. stressed again.
abt some things. i'm so confused. i know e endin will be real bad. but is it e only way to settle dis?
need to get my mind off e comp.
5:27 PM;
Saturday, September 10, 2005
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We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love ...BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly!
"Love always has been and always will be a mystery.Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life."
taken from chayhim's blog. hahahax.
10:41 AM;
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i was tinkin abt how much i've change.. hmm.. did i change a lot? haix. i know i'm not e same yuan months ago. wad caused e change? ppl? i gues so bah.
i kinda miss my short hair. no nd to tie n everythin. free n easy. but i lik my long hair too. kinda girlie. hahaha. u c! y yuan become more girlie liao? all ur fault la ______! haha ~
Moon! I gues she's e only gal tt I can refer as a true fren bahh :)
Moon mentioned in her blog tt she nd some serious exercise.. hmm.. i tot abt myself.. hmm.. hey my weight is not ideal too. oac definitely change my built. lol. tt's kinda BAD. sheesh. its weird durin napfa.. almost every1 else wan to score an A.. for us oacians.. its easy to score an A but we were asked to score a timing below 12mins. wad de.. ermm.. i'll NEVER aim for tt in my life if i wasnt asked to. lol. so far my fastest timin is only 12 min 30 plus seconds? arghh hw to reach 12mins? of cos WHEN THERE'S A WILL THERE'S A WAY.. haha i hope *cross fingers*
my frenx alwax say "SIAO ar"
wad to do? hahaha.
regardin runnin.. reminds me of qiaowei.. qiaowei n i used to b 'partners' for runnin.. we pace one another for runnin. haha. durin cross country.. i tink only she n i wana run our best becos its our last yr for cchsm cross country. many s4 students slack tt day so i gues it resulted my 10th position. hahax. it was my bday tt day anywayx so i gues it was a pretty gd bday gift for myself.
my integrity class's family. i'm e 2nd sis. liyi e eldest sis. jiening mommy, xiaohan xiao mei. kaizhao xiao di. lolx. miss my jie. she v teng3 wo3. haha. my didi ar.. long time nv kp in contact w me liao .. gues he found his new frenx le bahh.
ah ha dis is my beloved campcraft team tt i led w moon!!! :) YUPP first time in cchsm history our NPCC team got into e finals for girls competition! Though we only achieve a 9th position but i gues tt was enuff.. I love e spirit we had las time. The trainin was as tough as my present oac trainin.. haha whole day peggin n pullin ropes isnt a fun thin to do. Well.. its becos of e tough trainins tt brought us closer.. :)
hahaha my sec 2 classmates. lolx. i lok kinda hahaha funny :) v guy-guy hor. aiya miss tt guy-guyness tt i haf. its stil ard lahh. i HARDLY wear skirts la. my usual attire is bermudas.. shorts.. v casual.. now some fellow is askin me to wear more skirts. hahax -.- erm not as if i dun wana wear but
1) its unconvenient for me to jump ard
2) i haf few skirts
3) it is difficult to match my tops cause they r mostly t shirts! hahahax.
*cough*
girls -.-
10:10 AM;
Friday, September 09, 2005
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"i realised the true meaning of teamwork. teamwork is not only about looking out for oneself. its about extending care and concern to others, giving yourself selflessly to others. if you dun want to suffer pain, must others suffer it for you?"
taken from alex's blog.
yup yup! i totally agree :) i wanted to state dis point but i duno hw to put dem into words.. Ah! Alex ur EL is power :)
giving yourself selflessly to others..
yupp only that, we can work as a team! yup yup!
no man can survive alone!
(even tom hank in castaway needs a volleyball as his only frenx)
hmm.. whenever i do wk w others.. i wil alwax try to put in my best effort.. push myself.. be responsible.. even if e rest r slackin or wad.. it doesn't reali matter.. at most i get pissed at dem n at myself for bein so self sacrificial sometimes. hahax.
silly me.
love oac dudes. they r lovely. i reali hope all oacians can b more open abt their feelins. n share their troubles w e team! i'm sure we can help one another.
thanx to my frenx who look out for me when i'm sick.. muackx.. u guys r such lovely darlings!
11:33 AM;
Thursday, September 08, 2005
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You are 34.92% jealous!
For this test, the average jealousy percentage is 35.54%.
This percentage means that :
You are not a jealous person, but sometimes can be. Occasionally, you over-react to situations. Most of the time, you trust the people around. Jealously will not be a major issue in relationships, but you might want to improve your self-esteem.
You scored a 62.16%.
For this test, the average percentage is 52.280233884904%.
This score classifies you as:
You have an open mind, yet are firm in your beliefs. You are trusting of people and have a fairly easy time making new friends. You live a happy life and will continue to do so if you stay the way you are.
http://www.studentcenter.org/tests/
diaox
4:42 PM;
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haha actually i've lots to type abt but well.. blog is a public thin.. so hahaha cant really put all my tots n feelins into it.
tue nite.. i dreamed abt WTF (sorry abt givin u such a crude nick heex).. he tok to me. i wonder when wil tt ever happen. haha. mayb never.
haix.
to mou mou
dun gif too much to e ___
__ will nv return ur feelins
unles u become a different person
someone hu __ will appreciate
but hw much do u know abt ___?
dun try to act lik u know ___
if u do
den u'll know
u nd to let go
i dun wan u to b hurt lik i was once b4.
but i gues i'm still a fortunate gurl.
3:49 PM;
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OAC SEA EXPEDITION
was sick n was pretty worried abt kayakin.
luckily i n alex were great partners. we managed to entertain ourselves by bein in our own world, tryin to find songs tt both of us know hw to sing. taught him e "motivational" shouts to get ourselves kayakin "hek chor hek chor" lolx. it really work :)
lost my voice aft lunch at Sister's island. Prob becos e stuf i ate wasnt healthy n tt i'm stil sick.
though i cant tok, alex tok to me :) so yupp wasnt bored on e way to Pulau Hantu.
Pulau Hantu isn't a pretty place (becos i compared it to Loola resort). esp when i realised dere r sandflies :( ouch. dey bit me :( hahaha. 3 bites only. beta den my 42 bites frm june camp. lolx.
e toilet was well.. quite clean but no light supply. so e "gentlemanly" guys asked e gals to bath first while dey set up e tents (hw nice :) oh well.. we started cookin our dinner.. gew n alex grilled a chicken at e sand area. a volleyball size chicken.
mr lim told us tt we can watch e sunset so most of us left to watch e sun set. aft a while all of us gathered to watch e sunset.. hahaha unfortunately.. when we got back.. hmm.. e chicken went missin! :( hahaha. it was dragged by dis 4 claw creature all e way under a tree. lol.
e creature wasted our food as it only took a bite :( sheesh.
hmm.. my teammates were lovely. dey were v totful :) as i cldnt share food w dem.. Haha.
at night, e guys went to bath. liesel n ks were washin e mess tins n utensils in e guys toilet. so i n ss went to e guys toilet. well.. of cos e guys arent comfortable abt it.. knowin tt gals wil b ard. kinda scary lookin into e basin's mirror n c 3 guys in e background toples. LOL.
funny.
well me n ss went over 2 e gals toilet instead :) .. to take out our contacts :) .. liesel came by too.
sat ard e flame (it was supposed to use for roasting tt chicken).. n roast mashmallows n eat tidbits :)
played w sparkles :)
some of us went to jetty 2 tok. nothin much bah. tried to watch stars but e grey clouds blocked dem.
went to slp but well i cldnt :( gues all e gals cldnt slp except ms ang n ss. lolx.
e guys. took 35 mins to quieten down. n dey all slept well :(
partnered weikheam e nxt mornin. he's lik some powerboat. fast sia :) but well e water is tougher dis time round cos e wind n waves were against us.
partnered waikit aft lunch. lol first time in e whole journey on e sea my kayak lagged behind. n i've got a bad time kayakin. got pissed w him n he started kayakin faster. lol. yup so another powerboat. bleahx.
yawnx.
well reached bak 2 mainland earlier den we expected. 4-5pm.
hahaha. e expedition was fun la. LUCKILY there wasnt ANY STORMS at all. Heng!
sad case is tt.. yiks my voice din come bak. n yupp :( i'm stil sick.
8:18 AM;
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Test results
You are tired of the various 'ups' and 'downs' of life at this time. If only you could win a lottery - or better still, be the heir to a large inheritance which would allow you to afford a life of absolute luxury. This day dreaming will shortly pass and whether you like it or not, sooner or later you will have to face reality.
You are in need of rest, some peace and quiet. You feel the need to be close to that someone special, that someone who can give you that special consideration and unquestioning affection that you seek. If you don't find that 'special someone' and resolve your problems very soon, you are liable to become extremely introverted and cut yourself off from society. (Serious?! LOL)
You are trying to break away from the mundane existence that you have been experiencing of late. You have many high hopes and ideals but you are concerned whether circumstances will allow you to realize these ambitions. You want to spread your wings - to broaden your fields of activities - but you are concerned that your dreams are just that - 'dreams' which are not realistic. It concerns you that you are not thinking clearly at this time - what you need is to get away from it all, to give you time to think. A short vacation could well restore your confidence.
Your ability to withstand the pressures of everyday life have been overtaxed and this is leading to stress and frustrations. It would seem that for the time being you have lost the resilience and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties. You feel that it is all 'too much' and, try as you may, you are getting nowhere. But to give you credit, you continue to stand your ground and pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity. Naturally this situation is subjecting you to intolerable stress and pressure from which you would dearly like to escape, but you can not bring yourself to make the necessary decision. As a result you remain firmly involved in the problem and you can neither view it objectively nor get rid of it - you cannot leave it alone and you feel that you will only be at peace when you have reached your objective.
You are putting on a show - a facade. You are a master of demonstrating considerable charm in the hope that this can or will lead to better things. Deep down you are fearful that this may not work and that you may have to employ other strategies in order to realize all your ambitions
Quite true :)
http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/
8:17 AM;
Saturday, September 03, 2005
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felt rather -ve dis few days. project work n school work haf been piling up. i nd to study. broadband is distractin me. shdnt haf applied for it. sighxx.
las thu went to watch THE MAID w moon, angel n choonyan. it was supposed to b a npcc gatherin but end up only e 4 TJCians goin for e movie. THE MAID was nice.. Gd storyline. I gues e director or story writer tried extremely hard to b creative.. gues their efforts pay off.
aft tt we went to play pool w e guys.. harry n jon. jq n kim came too. went off early to go to New Balance Technical Centre. bought shoes.
wore my new shoes on fri. it was rainin. i almost slipped. not only once. not only twice. but many times. luckily i nv fall onto my butt. realised my shoes were for "Trail Running" n bracket (OFF ROAD). sheesh. so i suppose i cldnt wear dis shoes on smooth concrete floor i suppose.
bad day.
sore throat on fri n sat. fever at 7pm jux nw. yiks. i haf sea expedition on mon. gosh i beta get well soon.
i nd more rest.
btw while watchin THE MAID.. I realised tt i'm quite scared.. lol. sheesh. all e guys fault. made me so girlie. where's e manly yuan. stil ard lahh. i hope. haha.
its normal to feel jealous rite? but i dun wan. makes me unhappy. lolx.
people tag me if u read my blog k.. i really wonder hu r e ppl hu read my silly -ve blog.
10:57 PM;